I either eat too much or starve myself. Sleep for 14 hours or have insomniac nights. Fall in love very hard or hate passionately. I don’t know what grey is. I never did.
Fat people hate me. Why? Because I’m fat yet I don’t go about spitting out “thin privilege”. I do not use my fat as an excuse to not live my life. I don’t treat it as a disability. I’m not ashamed of my body. I love it. I’m a busy person, and will admit, I don’t exercise like I should. What I can do though, is make sure I eat right, make sure I schedule regular checkups to be sure that health problems that can be caused by a heavy set body aren’t happening to me. When my doctor tells me to do something to improve my quality of life. I don’t argue with him. I just fucking do it.
Mind you, I’m not an obese person, and I’ve been lucky to be blessed with a pear shape figure. So my fat is in my ass, hips, and thighs. It’s not building up dangerously around my heart and lungs, and really vital organs. That doesn’t mean I don’t want to ever get to that point though!
I do everything I can to not gain weight, because that’s what I currently have the time for.
The world doesn’t revolve around me because I’m fat. It wouldn’t revolve around me while I was thin. My life is actually not different. It has not been limited by the size of my body. (Well, I’m pretty short, so I have a hard time reaching things. That’s sort of a limit?) I have not allowed it to.
If people are “giving me looks” because of my weight, I don’t notice it. I’m not looking for it. Because a “look” is not my problem. If someone is disgusted by my body, that is also not my problem. It will not hinder me. I’m too busy living life to worry about crap like that. Now, if you say something to me, out of the blue, I will respond in an appropriate manner about how I don’t give two shits.
I don’t hate thin people! Because the size of someone’s body does not determine their worth whether their smaller or larger.
I don’t advocated people being bullied because of their weight. Terrible people will be terrible to you no matter what. Good people will be good to you no matter what.
What’s important no matter what, is to not be ashamed for your body. Learn to love your body, no matter what the size of it is. Because, when you love it, it doesn’t matter what other people think of it. When you love it, you’re going to do whatever you can to keep it working properly to keep it healthy.
You want people to treat fat people better? Treat your body better! Take it out swimming! Buy it an awesome dress! Go out dancing! (My favorite exercise by the way! Especially in front of a mirror!) I have nearly no experience since become an adult from other adults giving me shit about my weight. PEOPLE DON’T CARE AS MUCH AS YOU THINK THEY DO. But when you start throwing temper tantrums about people looking at (or supposedly at) you while you’re eating cake, then you’re only drawing more negative attention to yourself.
I understand that certain medications. Certain diseases, both physical and mental, can result in weight gain. Hell, that’s why it’s hard for me to drop the pounds. Being fat is not an excuse to live life. Get out of your own little world and start living!
Stop hating yourself. Stop using your body size as an excuse. You will never be able to control OTHER people’s behavior. You can only have control over yourself.
A little short film last year where I was the writer, assistant director, and editor. (Not color corrector.) I want to be very clear on that. lol.